When could I see a rainbow after this great rain?

When could I see a rainbow after this great rain? When can I see a flock of birds flying as the sun sets beneath the horizon? I feel so ill today and I can't describe what am I feeling right now. I don't know what to do because I'm pessed off on my problems especially to my special someone. I think most of us had experienced this kind of situation that I have now.

Problems! Why do these things exist? Is it possible to live a problem-free world? We live only once - and I want to live my life to the fullest and be happy as what I desired to be. Abruptly, the things I want to have and the happiness I want to be wasn't happening. On the contrary, great problems came in my way which I myself didn't expect.

I want to end up my life in a sudden, but I think about my special someone. I don't want her to be alone - living in the world without me. Thus, I say to myself - "...from now on, whatever may happen in this pessing situation -  I will accept everything, everything that may happen."

06:41 PM - Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Wanted To Be On Your Shoulders

Emptiness, this word might be so weird for you if you can't relate. But however, there are times when I feel cold - I want to shout out your name and would like to be on your shoulders. I need your comfort to be secured on my great fears above this sophisticated world. My greatest fear? There's only one thing I am very much afraid of - to feel again the pain. I wish I wouldn't be destructed again...

On other point, sometimes I think that with this girl - she really understands me and I could feel that she's willing to accept what I am and who I am. But not all times we are together,  we need to set limitations about seeing each other. I understand what she wants because we should prior on her studies. But when  I want to comfort, would she be there for me? I want to be on her shoulders.

12:58 PM - Tuesday, October 2, 2007